January 2009
4 posts
Number8_Rehab1month
January 20, 2009 - 1212am
It’s been a whole month now. What now?
Have i moved on? Am i ready to move on? I don’t know how much my heart could erase. It hurts knowing that someone loves you but at the same time does not want to take the risk. I thought risk was a part of love!? I’m still confused.
We’re still friends. We aim. We talk ever so often. Still left...
Number7_RandomRanting
01/11/09 900pm
Just randomly writing.
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My name is Kiwhawhat and I’m an alcoholic. Today, I really looked at myself and I don’t like what I’m seeing. I see a gloomy, distressed, frustrated, indignant, damaging, and downbeat drunk. What the fuck am I doing? What the hell are you doing to yourself? Don’t hold in the resent or bitterness. You did your best; now let it all...
Number6_AgoodRead_HappyNewYears
01/05/09 800pm
I wanted to share this. It’s an article by Tom Asacker titled “Nine Predictions for 2009.” I definitely needed this, and you might too.
Happy New Years!
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“Between stimulus and response there is a space. In that space is our power to choose our response.
In our response lies our growth and our freedom.” ⎯ Viktor E. Frankl
The reality of the coming year is...
Number5_Rehab2weeks
01/03/09 800pm
Trying to start the New Years fresh by focusing on the present and the future has been much harder than expected. No matter what I do something reminds me of her.
I’m not sure how much my heart can erase. The more I try, the more difficult it gets. Today, I spent the whole day cleaning my room, and it was finally that time to conceal those many memories and reminders of her. As...
Number4_Farewell 2008
12/31/08, 355pm
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In response to PF blog
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Dearest 2008,
Goodbye 2008. It’s been an extreme ride. I will not forget the many enjoyable, unforgettable, and doting memories. Yes, there were many good times, but also distressing ones, which have taught me lessons that I will treasure and draw on in my...
December 2008
3 posts
Number 3_RehabAweek
12/26/08 - 100am
It’s been 7 days. Only one week? It’s seems 5 times as longer! I feel like I’m losing it! Argh!
Romeo don’t let this happen. Be strong, have faith, grasp to hope, don’t restrain, and smile it’s the end of another day. You try to stay occupied, you keep focused, and for once be selfish. It’s about you right now! What do you want?
That’s the problem.
Number2_Rehab Day3 & OperationSantaClaus
These last few hours, days, and weeks have been a fanatical emotional rollercoaster ride that I wish to get off.
Today was different, for I had one moment where I wasn’t busy thinking about myself, but others. Its moments like this we need in life to teach us, to allow us to grow as individuals, to be appreciative of things in life, and to learn more about oneself. Yes the experience itself was...
November 2008
1 post
Number 1_Wow I'm bloggin
From time to time it’s good for one to express one’s true feelings, to talk in third person, to say what is needed to be said, to ramble impractical ideas and thoughts, and to enjoy the dull pastime of writing. This is my time.